I sat and looked at myself in the mirror recently. I have aged. I have changed. (I was not unaware of this). But it was distinctly obvious. I face mortality. Unlike many my age, I probably have 20-30 years more. What does this time look like? Will I leave a legacy? Am I worth a …
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The spiral may Always be Close
You’re doing ok. You’re building something. You’re making changes. And then all of a sudden you’re not. You’ve stepped in the wrong direction, and classically, you’ve gone too far before you realize where you are. You’ve spiraled. You’re up shit creek without a paddle. The current is strong. It’s going to take some fortitude to …
Lose Yourself to Find Yourself
It’s not true. Well, some profundity may be experienced in the realm of delving into your mind, altering your consciousness to a point where your perspective changes. But, at some stage, you’re going to need to stop trying to lose yourself, otherwise, simply put, you will never find yourself again. Stop trying to lose your …
Broken record, I am
I could write a paragraph about the same shit. I could write a paragraph about the possibility of change, about how it’s right there waiting for me to grab it by the horns. But this blog is for me. And the truth is, I want this to be reality. That reality is probably not mine. …
Regret
We’re surrounded by debris of the past… thinking about what could have been. What should have been. I am lost in my current position. Regret is a strong emotion. Apparently, if you’re feeling it, you’re living in the past. You’re remembering decisions and actions which you no longer have the power to affect. I can’t …
breaking the habit
This is the most important aspect of changing lifestyle addictions. The habitual motion of using hands for smoking. The timing of when you smoke, or when you play out any other habitual action in life. The ritual of when you drink. When you smoke. How you drink, and how you drink. Maybe how the two …
gambling
I learnt that you can be addicted to poker machines
the revelation
The moment I realized I had control
The Addiction Paradox 