discipline

It’s not something you have or not.

It’s a cycle of behaviour. You can be disciplined. You can act disciplined. But it’s not an attainable aspect of character which you may learn and have forever more. You’ll never have discipline. You’ll need to constantly behave in a disciplined way to be disciplined. Therein lies the challenge.

Always needing to go against the urges which lead me down an undisciplined path. Wayward. Loose. What are rules if they’re not meant to be broken? Rules are a set of guidelines to lead one to success. To maintain discipline. I hate rules. I inherently do not set rules for myself, I set guidelines. Guidelines, which can be bent to suit the moment.

A path, which will surely lead to a lack of discipline, and broken rules.

Not today. Not this time. Tomorrow. Next time.